Now I am not one to actually talk about my birthday because I don't like to "celebrate" that day. It is just one day of 365 other days in a year. It just so happens that years ago I happened to be born on that day.
This year I got several birthday wishes from various people and they were well appreciated. I guess, not so surprising, a few people chose not to send birthday wishes but those things are trivial in my mind. My focus is on how my day went.
As details are not the important thing with my day, the overall feeling is what I want to talk about. The day was used to do as I wanted. I drove around in the rain, examined the clouds, walked at the mall, and watched people at the book store. Sat, ate lunch, then had a few hours to just enjoy being, doing something I had never done before. I was so relaxed and content that it made the day very enjoyable. Afterward, I was able to drive some more and as the clouds broke and the sun started to shine the beauty of the day really came through.
What are my overall feelings? I feel alive, I feel great, I feel that great things are still to come in my life. To be able to spend my birthday as I wanted was fantastic. I lived life on my birthday. I became a day older than I was the day before, not a year older. The celebration for me was me. That is not selfish as everyone needs to be celebrated, to feel good about being alive. My mental state was the best it had been in a long time. Before the day ended I read a few chapters of a book I had gotten earlier in the day, watched my favorite show, ate a very good meal and ended up falling asleep on the couch.
There was no need to celebrate by birthday but the fact that I acknowledged the day as my day and enjoyed it as I wanted made it the best day.
This year I got several birthday wishes from various people and they were well appreciated. I guess, not so surprising, a few people chose not to send birthday wishes but those things are trivial in my mind. My focus is on how my day went.
As details are not the important thing with my day, the overall feeling is what I want to talk about. The day was used to do as I wanted. I drove around in the rain, examined the clouds, walked at the mall, and watched people at the book store. Sat, ate lunch, then had a few hours to just enjoy being, doing something I had never done before. I was so relaxed and content that it made the day very enjoyable. Afterward, I was able to drive some more and as the clouds broke and the sun started to shine the beauty of the day really came through.
What are my overall feelings? I feel alive, I feel great, I feel that great things are still to come in my life. To be able to spend my birthday as I wanted was fantastic. I lived life on my birthday. I became a day older than I was the day before, not a year older. The celebration for me was me. That is not selfish as everyone needs to be celebrated, to feel good about being alive. My mental state was the best it had been in a long time. Before the day ended I read a few chapters of a book I had gotten earlier in the day, watched my favorite show, ate a very good meal and ended up falling asleep on the couch.
There was no need to celebrate by birthday but the fact that I acknowledged the day as my day and enjoyed it as I wanted made it the best day.
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