I find it interesting how I went such a long time with a little bit of pain and then all of the sudden it was pretty much uncontrollable. Walking over two miles a day for several weeks and I was actually feeling pretty good. Then there it was. So unbearable that when I went to walk it took me one lap to get loosened up then I was out of commission the rest of the day.
It seems now that I want to put an interesting twist to the back pain. At the time the pain started to get worse I had made a change in my life. I grew up going to church all my life and over the past 10 years found a bad taste from going. Now I am attending church regularly on Sunday mornings and then I started going to two Bible studies on Tuesday and Wednesday. Guess when the back pain started. Right after I made the commitment to attend the Bible Studies. It was so evident that those there noticed my pain and I was even trying to conceal it as much as possible. So what has that got to do with my back pain?
I have learned through my church attending, from when I was younger, that Satan loves it when Christians stop doing what they are supposed to be doing. Not attending church, bad attitudes, living carefree and that who really cares attitude. Just like I had. Then all of the sudden I make a life change and try to get myself back to where I need to be. Well, Satan pretty much has free rain here on the earth and he does not like Christians to get on the right path. I truly believe that it was Satan allowing the pain to build and took away a lot of my pain tolerance so that I was really feeling miserable. But the thing is I refused to stop doing what I was doing. Being reminded that God is really in control and you must rebuke Satan to get him to leave you alone, I had to do something.
What was it I did? First I prayed to God and told Him I understand that due to whatever, I am going to have this pain and may never get rid of it. But that is not up to me, it is up to Him. (Jacob and Paul are examples of having injuries or illnesses that God would not remove and allowed them to keep as reminders of God being in charge. But if it was not going to be removed I needed the tolerance to be able to live daily as He would have me to. Then I had to rebuke Satan and say out loud, "Satan leave me alone, you are not going to control my life."
So what has this accomplished. First God knows that I want to live for Him, second Satan now knows he does not have power over me unless God allows it. Third, and finally the pain that was so bad is not. Yes, I am hurting but I expect to have some pain but it is not totally keeping me from doing things. Not that I can really do much but I am able to function with limitations. God is in control.
It seems now that I want to put an interesting twist to the back pain. At the time the pain started to get worse I had made a change in my life. I grew up going to church all my life and over the past 10 years found a bad taste from going. Now I am attending church regularly on Sunday mornings and then I started going to two Bible studies on Tuesday and Wednesday. Guess when the back pain started. Right after I made the commitment to attend the Bible Studies. It was so evident that those there noticed my pain and I was even trying to conceal it as much as possible. So what has that got to do with my back pain?
I have learned through my church attending, from when I was younger, that Satan loves it when Christians stop doing what they are supposed to be doing. Not attending church, bad attitudes, living carefree and that who really cares attitude. Just like I had. Then all of the sudden I make a life change and try to get myself back to where I need to be. Well, Satan pretty much has free rain here on the earth and he does not like Christians to get on the right path. I truly believe that it was Satan allowing the pain to build and took away a lot of my pain tolerance so that I was really feeling miserable. But the thing is I refused to stop doing what I was doing. Being reminded that God is really in control and you must rebuke Satan to get him to leave you alone, I had to do something.
What was it I did? First I prayed to God and told Him I understand that due to whatever, I am going to have this pain and may never get rid of it. But that is not up to me, it is up to Him. (Jacob and Paul are examples of having injuries or illnesses that God would not remove and allowed them to keep as reminders of God being in charge. But if it was not going to be removed I needed the tolerance to be able to live daily as He would have me to. Then I had to rebuke Satan and say out loud, "Satan leave me alone, you are not going to control my life."
So what has this accomplished. First God knows that I want to live for Him, second Satan now knows he does not have power over me unless God allows it. Third, and finally the pain that was so bad is not. Yes, I am hurting but I expect to have some pain but it is not totally keeping me from doing things. Not that I can really do much but I am able to function with limitations. God is in control.