Trying to figure out why I have an “attitude”.
Hey! It has been some time since I have stated my thoughts but
I really have not had a bunch on my mind. Well, that is until this week. The past
few days I have been agitated by statements that have caused me to become
moody. Believe it or not I had a friend ask me if it was my time of the month. (Sure
would like to see what happens when he asks his girlfriend that.)
Anyways, let’s get to what is bothering me. For the life of
me I have been trying to figure why my mood turned the way it did. My
relationships are going great; my finances are in order, and other than the
usual pains, health wise, everything is going well. So what was it that set off
my “attitude”? The one thing that I can point to is a phone conversation I had
the other day. I looked back at other times these feelings have come over me
and it seems that it revolves around talking to this one person. Now just to
clarify the person is not local to me nor do I see or speak to them often, but
I do not want to mention them by name because they may read this.
What am I trying to say by this? I guess there are a few things
that I am learning. As I cannot stop talking to this person I need to prepare
myself for the negativity that always comes up when we do chat. I try to steer
the conversation in other directions but at times I am unable to do so. Then I
feel that the best thing for me to do is to focus my thoughts off the negative
and on the positive of our conversation so that I do not direct my “attitude”
towards others. I tried to explain my “attitude”
to a friend that I had directed my “attitude” towards, but that is when I got the
“time of the month” statement. I hope that I am more attentive if I see someone
having a difficult time. More important is that I want to be able to control my
“attitude” so that I do not come across too negative as well. I have not been
one to be negative or depressed often and I want to keep it that way.
