You go through life and just let it happen. Sure there are things that you do along the way to move right along with it, but are you getting to where you need to be or want to be. I have gone on a wild ride for the longest time with my life and it has had lots of ups and downs. Many people have come and gone in my life who have helped me along and then there are those that have directed me in the wrong direction. For the most part it has been a good ride but I really wish I had made other choices than the ones I did but I can not go back and change the past.
So where am I? I am being self sufficient. It has been so long since I have had to take care of myself that I felt as though I needed others to depend on. That is not a good way to live!!! To have either someone depend on you or to have to always depend on others makes me feel inadequate and is not a very good feeling. I have my own apartment and have to maintain it as well as maintain myself and it is really a nice feeling. The hardest thing is being in an area where I do not know a lot of people. Working on finding good friends can really be a chore though I know I will find some good friends. To answer my question I would have to say that I am looking at myself as a self sufficient person trying to maintain myself as well as working on finding a core of friends that will be a support to me emotionally as well as my being the same support to them also.
Where am I headed? Good question that everyone of us has asked ourselves many times over the years. The best answer to that is... I am headed in the direction God has put me in to learn more about myself and how I interact with others. Knowing that with God's help I will be able to take care of myself and also that I will forge new friendships that will help me to grow into an even better person than I am already. Looking at the old friendships that I have and making sure that they are what is best for me in order to be the best that I can be also.
I am where I am because God has put me here to do the things He knows best for me. It is my responsibility to make sure I seek His guidance and do the proper things so that I can be used for and by Him.
So where am I? I am being self sufficient. It has been so long since I have had to take care of myself that I felt as though I needed others to depend on. That is not a good way to live!!! To have either someone depend on you or to have to always depend on others makes me feel inadequate and is not a very good feeling. I have my own apartment and have to maintain it as well as maintain myself and it is really a nice feeling. The hardest thing is being in an area where I do not know a lot of people. Working on finding good friends can really be a chore though I know I will find some good friends. To answer my question I would have to say that I am looking at myself as a self sufficient person trying to maintain myself as well as working on finding a core of friends that will be a support to me emotionally as well as my being the same support to them also.
Where am I headed? Good question that everyone of us has asked ourselves many times over the years. The best answer to that is... I am headed in the direction God has put me in to learn more about myself and how I interact with others. Knowing that with God's help I will be able to take care of myself and also that I will forge new friendships that will help me to grow into an even better person than I am already. Looking at the old friendships that I have and making sure that they are what is best for me in order to be the best that I can be also.
I am where I am because God has put me here to do the things He knows best for me. It is my responsibility to make sure I seek His guidance and do the proper things so that I can be used for and by Him.
